Weclome to Magmozine Day, a new series of posts where I'll detail how a recent day went for me, Magmozine.com's Editor.
Tuesday, May 30th, I decided to catch a solo screening of Dreamworks' Over The Hedge because I got fed up with my circle of friends & family's continued uninterest in viewing the film with me. I guess they're all just too grown up for this kind of toonish fun. I actually enjoyed the film. First half seemed to drag on but the film's second half more than made up for the entire film. The squirrel, who's voiced by the 40 year old virgin's Steve Carrell, is the only character in the film with such an extreme personality that overpowers the film and when his character shows emotional pain in the film, you almost shed a tear.
After that was done I travelled to Frisco's Stonebriar Mall where I managed to catch a baseball jock shopping for beauty products in Bath & Body Works. My crappy camera phone does not do him justice in the featured photos within this post but let me try to describe him. He showcased thick forearm muscles, had very large muscled pecs that pushed through his simple black shirt and featured slighty hairy calf muscles that he seemed to flex as he raised his body on his toes. Is this a new jock workout? He also smelled of high school sweat. When he was back was turned I pathetically snuck a photo here and there. Later on I overheard he was shopping for his girlfriend. Bitch.
Later on in the day I jumped malls to Plano's The Shops of Willow Bend. There I encountered another jockish customer in Hollister where we shared iPod tips. He had his out, I had mine out and then he smiled inviting verbal contact... and so after some minutes of chat he tells me about Odeo.com. Here he tells me that he finds some great remixes of songs that he supposely can't find elsewhere. Minutes later, after I thought he was "family", his fucking girlfriend strolls by and whisks him away. Closet case? Fuck if I know but I just didn't feel like getting deeper in that kind of situation. She wasn't so kind to me either. Bitch.
On Odeo I also discovered a wonderful queer delight on the web, Feast of Fools. May 26th show podcast just below, a hot discovery! In this post they're talking about Gay Day(s) at Walt Disney World, fuck yeah! Fans of Disney theme parks, don't forget to go to Micoofy.com, my Disney blog for the GLBT community! Hint Hint FOF: Talk about my blogs!
Finally I got home and caught the Mavericks loose against that other bball team and then caught some Tivo's programs and then finally got to work on my blogs as well as updating AGuySite.com's Summer Edition.
Please be aware that you must be 18 years of age to view Magmozine.com as well as this highly uncensored video of DJ Benny Benassi's newest single "Who's Your Daddy?". The video boasts female breasts and straight adult content in nearly every fucking single frame. I even tented a woody just listening to the single as I typed this.
Benny Benassi... If that name sounds familiar well it should. Their last hit single created the video that everyone and their mother was shocked by, "Satisfaction". Various parodies were produced of "Satisfaction" featuring role reversals because some people felt the need to include men where women once were. And it worked.
So now I challenge you to create the appropiate gay version of "Who's Your Daddy?" We really need a gay version so freakin' bad that my now rock hard cock is beggin for it. It'll do just about anything to see that gay "Who's Your Daddy?" video. It's still mind blowing to me why there were not 2 versions of the video officially produced for straight/lesbians & gay/female/married closeted men.
Enjoy those of legal age. Just above is the censored version, below is the uncensored version.
Update: Uncensored version has been deleted.
Update: Reader "bluehour" was interested in seeing the male version of Benny Benassi's video for Satisfaction. Here it is, done by the swedish.
I have no idea who this person is or what the story is behind these photos but I'd love to find out from my audience, that is if anyone knows. And most importantly, are there more of this pulchritudinous around?
Update: Thanks to my readers today's featured pulchritudinous has been identified. He is George Maharis, a popular actor back in the days, that was one of the first celebrities to pose for Playgirl's 2nd issue on July 1973. Supposely in Playgirl's first issue, the male nude model was cross legged and readers complained demanding dick so when George stepped up in issue 2, he revealed all.
Later on November 21, 1974 George was caught committing a sex act with a male hairdresser at a service station restroom and another time for making a pass at an undercover cop in another restroom environment back in 1967
I still don't get why men choose or feel the need to look for gay sex in public restrooms, I mean, maybe I know but man, fuck if I can ever see this as a thrill. Anyways, according to IMDB.com, he is still alive and kicking as an impressionistic painter and possibly a singer of some kind. I am still seeking the complete photo series of this playgirl shoot. Hopefully someone has them to share with the class.
Don't you just hate it when someone looks good in about any article of clothing whether it be a tee shirt or shorts or even a jacket that's missing a shirt? Then let me introduce you potential buyers to eBay's stuff4jocks! I first noticed him some time ago when I searched eBay for Abercrombie & Fitch clothing... like I need more A&F clothing, but I searched nonetheless.
That's when I discovered stuff4jocks and his interest in selling me, the average jockish wannabe, used clothing that's always photograph from his neck down never showing his face. But since some men have shown interest in handing over cash for a glimpse of his face that he now offers a full body photograph you can bid on that features his face [one auction ending at 31 bucks] . He also has grooming tips you can bid on as well as a "workout fitness program" thing that features a photograph of him pre-muscle. He wasn't born with this body, he had to work for it and you too can be just like him, well sort of, if you follow his program.
Using google I now discover stuff4jocks has a MySpace account where he boosts 600+ friends and a comment by a MySpace friend "Rob" who says "oh what?? u think u can beat me man thats it, ur on ;) im gonna pin ur ass down in a sec man". Hmmm.. Anyways, I forgot that I also wrote about him on my old AGuySite Blog Learn 2 Lust . eBay Model.
So if you're online looking for tees and other various clothing articles for guys- I mean "jocks", check out stuff4jocks' eBay store. He usually starts his products at $6.99 but of course price is subject to change. I will say he makes a good chunk of change so if you have a body to lust for- I mean admire and you want to get into the business of selling used clothing then get on eBay and be the next stuff4jocks.
gBay is a new feature here on Magmozine.com where quality eBay items are presented for those [male] buyers of interest. Most of the time they will be a "Buy It Now" selection so act fast because you could miss out on that special product. Yes the featured item could mean absolute crap to one person but could very well mean a rare treasure find for another. Have fun with eBay- I mean gBay!
Wow. That's a big number. 5 million 179 thousand and 2 hundred and 98. That includes unique hits, reloads, return visits- basically if someone used the internet to get to any of my websites [AGuySite.com, Magmozine.com, GuyTVBlog.com, AGuySite Blog, Micoofy.com] with the intent to enjoy my online work then that is the number that I get when I add everything up. I started AGuySite.com, my first online venture, around the middle of 2003 and with it being somewhere in the middle of 2006 that makes 3 years of working online. I just... I'm amazed that I, me, an average joe, created all of this. This also means that you, the next blogger to be, can reach this number [probably in about half the time it took me] when you get your own unique stylized blog started today!
Now yes I know that some other blogs and/or websites have reached 5 million hits in about a day, maybe a week's time or about every month but this is my moment, my accomplishment, so for those of interest please bare with me.
Last night was when I wondered about my collective numbered presence on the net and so I researched all my stat websites and put the numbers together with this mega number presented to me. I just.. I don't- fuck, I just don't know what to think. Well, I do know that I will never, ever think that my time spent online was wasted because it was all worth every minute of work. I thank everyone for helping me reach this giant number.
Everything first started with AGuySite.com which debuted sometime in 2003 to a very slow start. Somehow people started to pay attention to my little piece of the web and I started gathering an audience. Soon I started having bandwidth issues and server host problems with increased traffic but I kept AGuySite.com going, updating every month through 2005. In 2006 AGuySite.com went bi-monthly for reasons you'll soon be informed of.
During the monthly updates of AGuySite.com I added a guestbook to better connect with my audience. Around that time is when I first noticed blogs. Many of my frequent visitors started asking if I could post daily but if I did that I would start having bandwidth issues again so then I got an idea. It was time to create my very first blog.
I quickly signed up with blogger and created AGuySite Blog in the summer of 2004. Running both AGuySite.com & AGuySite Blog was a new breathe of PC air because I felt I had a bigger voice for audience. Being a "virgin" to blogs I felt that my entire audience would jump ship and leave AGuySite.com to die a web death but I seemed to have doubled my audience over night.
As AGuySite Blog got into a few months of solid posting I started to notice many of my posts were about tv related programs. I suddenly felt the need to create another online venture for my interest in guys who watch guys on tv. May 2005 came with the debut of GuyTVBlog.com. Finally I could separate everything tv related away from AGuySite Blog and found myself updating a monthly website and 2 blogs daily. I then tripled my audience.
A few months after GuyTVBlog.com began to take off I started to watch AGuySite Blog almost stop growing creatively. Shit like that happens. You either change or you give up. So... I started to tease AGuySite Blog readers about "Magmozine" for a few weeks because I just love to tease guys.
On November 15th of 2005, Magmozine.com debuted with 5,000 plus hits [of course with thanks to certain blogs who helped spread the Magmozine word] and today Magmozine.com averages 2,000 hits daily. AGuySite Blog is no longer a daily update of mine and it currently just sits at a stand still on the net yet bringing in a steady audience despite that it hasn't been updated since November 15th of 2005.
Next people started to notice a new yet healthy obsession on Magmozine.com... and it was my epic, gut wrenching love for Disney Theme Parks. So then I got another bright idea. Tinker Bell flew around me and sprinkled pixie dust all over my queer dreams thus creating Micoofy.com! It's what I like to call the 1st Disney Theme Park blog for the GLBT community. With a few trips planned for this year to Disneyland & Walt Disney World, Micoofy.com fans can expect many refreshing updates from my newest blog all year long. I will admit Micoofy.com is starting off slow so please, if you like, help spread the word of Micoofy.com.
Finally, after years of a website's own celebrated success, I noticed MySpace.com. This was to be my next online venture for Magmozine.com. I'm networking there with Magmozine.com's official profile, posting bi-weekly "Dear Reader Joe," letters there, meeting new friends via online chats and hoping that one day I'll have every gay and/or bisexual male friend on MySpace.com.
3 blogs: Magmozine.com, GuyTVBlog.com & Micoofy.com. 1 website: AGuySite.com [which is currently changing from bi monthly updates to quarterly updates, summer edition to debut June 1st] And 1 official online profile: Magmozine's MySpace profile. I can only say I keep doing what I do because YOU have continued to show interest in my work. I once again thank you and I hope my simple story of success inspires you to create your 1st online venture.
This month's May question deals with yet another 1st date with a mystery guy. We are almost at the stage of taking our first actual "date" so this whole week I'm asking Magmozine.com's audience [and those just passing through] your advice on what to do on my next 1st gay date.
Give me advice, plan my date out, give me queer pointers, tell me what to wear, what I should say, just comment away. I look forward to your thoughtful words!
And Now For The Feature Presentation: Warner Bros. Pictures, Legendary Pictures, Virtual Studios & Atmosphere Entertainment present a new cinematic event based on the graphic novel by Frank Miller, "300". The film details the story of King Leonidas [played by Gerald Butler] and 300 or so Spartans who battled the legendary Xerxes and his Persian army.
My discovery of this film comes from catching a screening of Poseidon that featured the theatrical trailer for the upcoming romantic film, The Lake House. After arriving back home seeking the song used in The Lake House preview [Keane . Somewhere Only We Know] I somehow took a detour to Quicktime where I finally discovered 300. Not to be released until Spring 2007 [date subject to change], this film marks yet another on screen venture for Sin City's creator, Frank Miller.
Today, like most films with potential to create online buzz, the official website features a production blog that details how the filmmakers plan to bring this monstrous story to your local cinemplex. Here on the blog you'll also find video of the cast & crew at work and it's the place where we, the gay market of interest, can view Gerard Butler [The Phantom of the Opera, Tomb Raider 2] in his masculine yet very brutal glory.
The director of 300 is Zack Synder, the man who brought us the bloodfest remake of Dawn of the Dead and the soon to be Tom Clancy's Rainbow Six. Zack is quite the muscled director who doesn't hold to the visually stereotyped, overweight, fugly directors many of us are use to seeing on DVD featurettes.
Entitled "Harry Pantery, Fakir", this postcard features a buff fakir that could represents "feats of magic and endurance".
Entitled "Frank, Ed, Bill and Al", this postcard features a handsome foursome that probably... enjoyed each other's company.
Entitled "Handsome Sailor", this postcard is simply patriotic & admirable.
Entitled "Four Soldiers in Manilla", this postcard features a possibly crazy eyed solider [out of frame], a solider comfortable with their masculinity, another solider that looks to be keeping secrets [out of frame] and a solider that is possibly straight but worth the friendship that could possibly but most not likely lead to a sexual relationship.
So what's your interest? What are you looking for? Maybe it's Blue's 2004 December issue? Or how about Metro's 2006 May issue? What if Tetu's 2006 April issue is the one you've been looking everywhere for? Then stop looking through your friend's magazine piles, check out gBay's Power Seller, Maxx Mags & More!
gBay is a new feature here on Magmozine.com where quality eBay items are presented for those [male] buyers of interest. Most of the time they will be a "Buy It Now" selection so act fast because you could miss out on that special product. Yes the featured item could mean absolute crap to one person but could very well mean a rare treasure find for another. Have fun with eBay- I mean gBay!
A few of you may have noticed that the image here has been altered. Here's why. Paul "homophobe" emailed me and wrote:
"Hi, my name is Paul ???? and I was notified by my friend that my picture was on your home page. It’s the one of superman with green cup and the French maid. Please remove this now, as I am not gay and most definitely don’t appreciate you using my picture on your website. I will notify the proper authorities if it remains on your website.
Paul ????"
Why is this such an issue for some "straight" guys? I found the picture off the net, on some random board. You willingly post a picture of yourself or pose for a picture that may be posted online, well it's going to get whored around. Just because you're image is posted here doesn't mean you're fucking gay. This unique post helps those of interest become well aware that Halloween is 176 days away. That's all. It has a superman theme.
And who the fuck are "the proper authorities"? The blogger police, complete with steel coated beating mouses? The government itself? Or maybe a person with the "proper" power who could really give a fucking rats ass if your sexual identity is at risk...
Paul, and I know you're reading this because you're checking back to see if your sexual life is no longer at risk, stop worrying about what people think because people will always question everything about you. Your sexuality, your intentions, your assumptions, your morals, your beliefs, your homophobia... Paul, sweet innocent Paul, enjoy the simplicity that is life, because obviously you're not enjoying life. That's the best advice I can give you. Don't waste my time again.
Oh Paul, I hope Brandon Routh is not in fear of people thinking he's gay [as you so blatantly are] just because I posted screen caps from his new movie, Superman Returns, here on Magmozine.com. Do you now think Brandon Routh is gay? Can you forever get the image of an assumed gay actor [that you've labeled gay just because he's been featured on a gay blog] out your head when you yourself see Superman Returns?
Now do you see how useless your email & threat was? I am done with you.
Update: And so I'm not done with him. He responsed stating that he wasn't "trying to start up any kind of controversy or confrontation over the internet" as most who contact me in this manner state after I vent off all dramatic. He has no idea who posted the pic or how it got online for me, a queer, to adore. He also stated that he was "in a rush" when he emailed me and that he doesn't even know who the proper authorities are nor is he homophobic.
The reason I continue to use the word homopboic/homophobe is because, as stated by definition, "showing an irrational hatred, disapproval, or fear of homosexuality, gay and lesbian people, or their culture". This would fall under fear or disapproval. People tend to view this word in many forms.
It turns out "Paul", the now deleted superman fan as well as a possible college student [email ending in .edu] slash horny muscled youth... is not a fan of "pornographic material". This is usually the 2nd excuse one throws at me. But I always wonder, if some big breasted girl had a similiar straight blog and had some girl on girl porn on her site and just happened to have his picture in a similiar superman post... would he really mind? Not to pick on Paul but would any straight guy with these same issues have this fucking issue?
He does admit that maybe he's "paranoid that it could circulate around and be found by a possible future employer…who knows…" But really, if you are now telling me your gay friend found this and that you're not homopbobic, then would you really want an employer who is homphobic? He does end his latest response with "I Hope your site is successful in whatever your goal is with it. Thanks for removing the picture."
Well I'll admit I'm stil a bit irriated because this continues to happen. I can not control the internet and what happens when you or someone posts a picture featuring you... but I will remove any such photo because I'm not a complete dick. This isn't so much a verbal attack on Paul himself but I do use him as an example for others with similiar issues. I think I'm done now.
Magmozine.com welcomes our newest team member, Cemun Khok, your Cinematic/Porn Reviewer. Today's cinematic film is Misson Impossible 3, the epic story of Ethan Hunt's heterosexual relationship with a Katie Holmes look alike as he battles evil baddies at every global corner. Now this review will contain major spoilers but you'll have to highlight the closeted text to find out what happens to Mr. Hunt and his desirable body. I will mainly comment on what I saw and what I expected to see on film and what I thought the film never delivered. If you've already seen the film, maybe you'll have loads of semen fun reading this.
I caught the film on a special "almost" midnight screening here in Texas. I say "almost" because the film had a 10 p.m. start time and I got home around 1 a.m. I walked out of the theatre thinking 2 things. One, why are there so many caucasian guys in my local theatre with their fucking collars up? When I went to take a piss in the private bathroom [mmm... horny memories] I looked at myself in the mirror and flipped up my collar... I didn't look like myself. It was as if I was trying to protray a different person than I knew I was. I laughed and focused back on the other thing about MI:3 when I walked back to the car.
This movie lacked complexity and delivered a heterosexual romance that seemed to stand in the way of the film's potential. One negative thought after fucking negative thought started flooding into my mind as I replayed the film in my head. Why did it end like that? Why did she look like a Katie Holmes double? Who the hell had control over this film, Tom Cruise or J.J. Abrams? Why was the villain such a let down? Why do I hate this movie so fucking much?
Michelle Monaghan aka Katie Holmes: All I saw once the movie started was Ethan Hunt love story in peril, not the world. The world was fine, it was Ethan Hunt's love interest, played by Michelle Monaghan, who was in dire need of Ethan's quick wit and muscled physique. I was annoyed. Thanks to the media and my acceptance of the Tom Cruise virus that has infected pop culture, I just could not separate Tom Cruise from Ethan Hunt.
Closeted Text: As the film began we see a glimpse of what we'll see later in the film, Tom Cruise's- I mean Ethan Hunt's sexual interest on the verge of death from our story's central villain. Suddenly the credits start up and we're back in time catching up on Ethan's love story. It's an engagement party and the whole J.J. Abrams gang is there to celebrate. There was a toast regarding marriage and all I, Cemun Khok, could see is the parallel that is Tom Cruise's current life.
Later on Ethan gets a phone call and tells his wife he has to leave the house to get ice. He pulls into a gas station and meets a guy inside and gives the viewing audience that this handsome man is Ethan's big secret from his wife. How funny that the real Tom Cruise must be doing the exact thing, meeting his secret boyfriend while his paid wife gives birth to his new pride and joy. Fuck the love story.
Impossible Plot 3: The plot was left wide open, almost like following a vague story telling method where the audience is suppose to fill in the blanks as to what's really going on. The story was far too simple and was second to Ethan's epic fight for the love of his life... a woman. Yes there's loads of edge of your seat action sequences but guess what, everything is happening because of his love for... a woman.
Did this story really need a love story? Absolutely not. What it needed was a story with depth and intelligence. I swear on my cock you won't find any brillance in MI:3. None.
Closeted Text: So the story centers around an evil baddie, played by Philip Seymour Hoffman, who is need of the "rabbit's foot". What's the "rabbit foot" you ask? Fuck man, I still can't tell you that because the movie never tells the audience what it is. There's also a new baddie introduced, the one person who you never thought was a trader, who was introduced to jaw dropping surprise but then dies quicker than a bullet leaves Ethan's gun. Talk about disappointment.
All I wanted was Ethan's weakness of the love a woman to be left out and to be delivered a global spy film about how Ethan and his team save the world... not a fucking woman! He doesn't save the world, he saves a fucking woman. I'm so annoyed.
Ethan's new male & female bombshells:Jonathan Rhys Meyers and Maggie Q delivered wonderful supporting characters. The best of the series yet. Of course Mr. Meyers kept his Irish accent and showed off his body in a towering shirtless scene while Maggie Q remained stunning beyond belief as she stole every scene from Tom's epic love story.
Of course Tom Cruise had a shirtless bedroom scene as well. It seems that Mr. Cruise now has to shed his shirt in every movie. Remember War of the Worlds when he shed his clothing in that solo bedroom scene. I'm so glad he's on our team...
The moments where I felt my money was well spent: That scene where he's running down a global street is a hold your breath type moment. In a behind the scenes story I found out that he was sprinting the entire shot, no cut aways and that all the extras had a que on where to go and when. If any of the extras stepped off their mark, Tom would have knocked them over and possibly hurt them. It was just a great scene.
The only bad thing about this great scene is you're waiting for it and until it comes, you know Tom- I mean Ethan will be all right. You see that's why trailers spoils movies. You see a glimpse of a great sequence and you're sometimes waiting for it while watching the film.
When Ethan breaks into any building or protected facility, well let's just say that it is very well written and somewhat believeable to the average joe. Basically you're not going to be rolling your eyes as potential bullshit unfolds. Let's take the highway scene, the one where Ethan's body is hurled into a car's side by an explosion behind him. I couldn't keep still in my seat. When the scene finally ended I breathed a sigh of relief.
And I love the line when Ethan's love interest asks him,"What are you not telling me?"
And finally, Tom Cruise's acting is always borderline over the top but still always a spectacular performance to take in. I just have to stand up fully erect and clap as hard as I can for Tom. Thank for this film and a summer movie experience I'll remember... that is until the next summer blockbuster opens.
Tom & J.J.'s slap to pop culture's faces: In one of Ethan's epic escape scenes in MI:3, he places a walkie talkie on a radio that's playing a song. Go ahead, take a guess what song it could. It could be any fucking song from the American songbook but someone behind the scenes choose this one...
Damn it. I can't remember the name of the song. Or who the fuck sings it. But it's a gay ass song. A slap in our faces by Tom & J.J. If anyone knows the song featured in the movie during this scene, comment away. Fuck I can't remember. I blame Tom.
The post "magmozine . the fab covers" orginially debuted on my first venture that was aguysite blog on March 30th 2005. Today I re-introduce my readers to Fab Magazine's wonderful covers.
We all know that magazines on newstands either need a gripping photo to capture your interest or a headline that makes you take a second look. Fab Magmazine seems to accomplish both of these tatics issue after issue. This is a Canadian publication so expect to find "prominent queer Canadian personalities" within each copy. Enjoy the selection and take a browse through their website because I'm sure you'll find something... fab.
Just recently the official theatrical trailer for Superman Returns has hit the web. If your PC is up to new standards, I give you the direct link to the High Definition Trailer. For those with no interest in viewing a larger than fuck media format then click the regular link below. Quicktime player is required. Isn't he beautiful. Isn't the goon below just dreamy? Cinea-Yum.
Welcome to an all new issue of Magmozine! To those still brand new to Magmozine.com, here's how things work. Every 1st day of the month I write a letter to my readers detailing any news, information or announcements regarding my 4 websites; Magmozine.com, GuyTVBlog.com, Micoofy.com & AGuySite.com. This magazine inspired blog, Magmozine, is the main focus of my web work. This should be your first stop if you have all 3 of my websites bookmarked. All my websites are free and available because of your continued interest and support. Thank you.
Some of you know that everything started with AGuySite.com, my first website venture. Since my blogs have taken off the monthly editions for the website have changed to bi-monthly editions and now with all the work that goes into my 3 blogs, AGuySite.com is getting left behind. So with that said, I will be creating a summer edition of AGuySite.com to debut around the middle or end of May. Look for that. All new links. All new fotos. All new text. Just All New! AGuySite.com! One just can't forget where it all started...
In other news, many of you are aware that MySpace has taken over my interests in the past week and continues to do so as I write this. Just in case you don't know I now have a MySpace profile for Magmozine.com. What use to be the 4th item of the day I'd check while online has become the 1st item of the day I check when I turn my PC on. Now I'm not saying I'm addicted [not yet at least] but I am very much interested how the site works and how networking on it is a damn good thing. I welcome those who are new and if you have something to say, please comment your heart away.
I also want to thank the newly designed Fleshbot for doing a write up on GuyTVBlog.com. I wrote about it on my site there but since a small handful of GuyTVBlog.com readers are telling me they are sixteen well I felt I had to not link back to the site. I apologize for this and I once more thank Fleshbot for their heavy traffic they sent over in the past few days. New readers means new PC love.
And now onto my Hard Sell posts. Some may have noticed quotes on the fotos of sites such as Corbin Fisher, Sean Cody, Randy Blue, etc. featuring a person detailing their quoted experiences. Cemun Khok. He's my new alter ego and my answer to finally reviewing some of the pay sites I'm affiliated with. If you haven't figured it out by now, Cemun Khok is spoken like Semen Cock. Clever? I'd like to think so. Expect to see Cemun Khok's first porn review this month [with many more to cum in the cumming months].
Finally, I've been researching into a sex fetish for the past few months, collecting information and data to write about sometime this summer. But the subject is so disapproving I don't know what people will think of me. I'm not into this fetish. This fetish sometimes makes me shed a tear. I feel dirty and sick to my stomach after making myself do some more research. The videos, the images... the people. This fetish is real and it continues behind closed doors. Can I stop it? Well I can sure as hell try. Stay tuned to Magmozine.com for my investigaytion of... [Fetish withheld at this time]
But let's end this month's letter on a good note. One of my MySpace "friends" wrote a bullentin announcing to everyone that he had just recently came out to this mother and father. I congratulated him and then started to look at my own closeted life. I think by summer's end I may come out to my family. I said "I think". Knowing me I'll save it for the upcoming holidays, maybe Christmas dinner!
